The Day stood still, The Night curious: “What is it?” The Day wisely answered “A moment…
Time; For Myself
Honestly, I could use a couple months off to focus on a lot of my personal projects. It’s really starting to irk me that I can’t. Both my boss and my admin know I’ve been wanting to do this, but I don’t know if they’ll let me or if I can pull it off. I’m usually busy enough work that I put in 40h a week.
It’s nice being able to publish websites that you worked on for clients. What’s even nicer is seeing it flourish the way it should — all to many times have sites just sat there because their owners did nothing with it. But we all need time for ourselves and time apart.
“You have time at night…” I hear you say, and yes, I do. Despite that, I adopted the moto “Don’t bring work home” and since work is in essence art and programming, I don’t want to do either when I’m home. I don’t want to draw, illustrate, design, nor do HTML, JavaScrip, PHP, or Bash.
You’ve already seen some of the projects I want to work on(if anyone truly cares about my Tumblr and me), and you’ll know I have many. I get ideas, creative thought processes, incentive to do awesome stuff, but it seems I’ve hard coded that moto within me.
So I sit here. Dreaming. Recognizing I don’t have much energy to do everything I want to. It feels sad, and it might be, but I know who I am, and every day, I’m becoming more acceptant. As long as I can keep my head on straight, I will attain the end goal.
The only social media I use is Tumblr, and even then, I don’t follow hundreds of people. I don’t feel it necessary to share everything, but sometimes it feels good to get things off your chest.
Yes, I am constantly connected, but I also know how to disconnect. I take the time to entertain myself, relax and then hopefully I can be productive outside of work.
Take time for yourself, embrace those little moments where you feel comfortable, away from everything. A hot chocolate and a warm blanket, thoughts outside of work and the Internet; it’s peaceful, isn’t it?
More Games, Less Time
My Steam cart has just a bit over $200 of games I want to purchase and play. The problem is I don’t have the time to play them. BF3 is proving to be all too fun, but I think if I did purchase all of these games, I’d quickly burn through MW3 then jump on Skyrim in waits of my squad members.
So here’s the list, and I could easily add several more games that I want to play:
- Modern Warfare 3
- Deus Ex expansion
- DIRT 3
I think that’s it. I could easily add the following though:
- Dungeon Siege 3
- Space Pirates and Zombies
Along with all the other games I want to buy and finish.
Gamer problems: Having a backlog of games to play and simply adding to it because of exciting release.
Not Burnt, But Dimming
The constant state of having to work is starting to get to me. Although I leave for California and Minecon on the 16th of November, I’m starting to fall back on the idea of taking a lot more time for myself. Maybe a month? Two months? Time to play games I want to finish. Time to completed projects I have waiting. Time to improve my apartment.
Even with California, I won’t really have time to myself. I’ll always be out, with friends, playing games, socializing, having fun. A well deserved rest, but I still would like time to myself. Alas, money is key. And to get money, I require work. So I’m in this ever spinning, dwindling state until I recover somehow, renewed energy, something.
This has happened a couple times before. I don’t even want to take on new projects — which is what I do to renew energy sometimes.