Time; For Myself
Honestly, I could use a couple months off to focus on a lot of my personal projects. It’s really starting to irk me that I can’t. Both my boss and my admin know I’ve been wanting to do this, but I don’t know if they’ll let me or if I can pull it off. I’m usually busy enough work that I put in 40h a week.
It’s nice being able to publish websites that you worked on for clients. What’s even nicer is seeing it flourish the way it should — all to many times have sites just sat there because their owners did nothing with it. But we all need time for ourselves and time apart.
"You have time at night…" I hear you say, and yes, I do. Despite that, I adopted the moto "Don’t bring work home" and since work is in essence art and programming, I don’t want to do either when I’m home. I don’t want to draw, illustrate, design, nor do HTML, JavaScrip, PHP, or Bash.
You’ve already seen some of the projects I want to work on(if anyone truly cares about my Tumblr and me), and you’ll know I have many. I get ideas, creative thought processes, incentive to do awesome stuff, but it seems I’ve hard coded that moto within me.
So I sit here. Dreaming. Recognizing I don’t have much energy to do everything I want to. It feels sad, and it might be, but I know who I am, and every day, I’m becoming more acceptant. As long as I can keep my head on straight, I will attain the end goal.